after Nina Simone
you’ve given me no choice / but to join a coven for the complimentary book of spells / show up unwanted at your house for Christmas lunch / chanting in Xitsonga and Yoruba instead of singing carols / it’s no holiday without the “dear beloveds” speeches / you’re the closest I have ever come to understanding bondage / I mean love / I mean family / I wish I knew what my mother meant when she said she was coming back / ’cause she did what you did / pulled a Houdini without the smoke & mirrors so nobody knows there was a blaze at house 143 except the ones who were burned /I will undress & say “Baby there was a fire here” as I shiver / before your face contorts at the sight of what you did / tell me / what does it mean to be dead in one state / but alive in another / are there different rules / different vital signs / how am I still on earth but nonexistent to you? / let me be your Christmas miracle / a reincarnation / I am coming back to you / and I don’t care if you don’t want me / I am yours / I put a spell on you / because you’re mine / close your eyes / say a prayer / Merry Christmas.
Nkateko Masinga is a South African writer whose poetry is published in U.S journal ‘Illuminations’ and is forthcoming in UK pamphlet press Pyramid Editions. In 2017, her poem titled “I Wonder If Leaving Home Made Me This Way,” published in American journal “Illuminations” Journal Issue 32, was nominated for the 2018 Pushcart Prize: Best of the Small Presses collection. In 2015, her work was shortlisted for the ‘Respond’ Human Rights Poetry Award 2015/2016, organized by the United Human Rights Student Network. In 2017 she was a finalist for the 4th Crystal Ruth Bell Residency in Beijing, China. Nkateko has been selected as a 2019 fellow of the Ebedi International.